"Never Be The Same Again" -Melanie C

Come on. Ooh, yeah.

Never be the same again.

I call you up whenever things go wrong.

You're always there. You are my shoulder to cry on.

I can't believe it took me quite so long.

To take the forbidden step.

Is this something that I might regret?

(Come on, come on)

Nothing ventured nothing gained. 

(You are the one)

A lonely heart that can't be tamed.

(Come on, come on)

I'm hoping that you feel the same.

This is something that I can't forget.

I thought that we would just be friends.

Things will never be the same again.

It's just the beginning it's not the end.

Things will never be the same again.

It's not a secret anymore.

Now we've opened up the door.

Starting tonight and from now on.

We'll never, never be the same again.

Never be the same again.

Now I know that we were close before.

I'm glad I realised I need you so much more.

And I don't care what everyone will say.

It's about you and me.

And we'll never be the same again.

I thought that we would just be friends (oh yeah).

Things will never be the same again. (Never be the same again)

It's just the beginning it's not the end. (We've only just begun)

Things will never be the same again.

It's not a secret anymore.

Now we've opened up the door. (Opened up the door)

Starting tonight and from now on.

We'll never, never be the same again.

Never be the same again.

Nite and day.

Black beach sand to red clay.

The US to UK, NYC to LA.

From sidewalks to highways.

See it'll never be the same again.

What I'm sayin'

My mind frame never changed 'til you came rearranged.

But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.

To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.

Where there's no competition.

And you render my condition.

Though improbable it's not impossible.

For a love that could be unstoppable.

But wait.

A fine line's between fate and destiny.

Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?

When you tell me the stories of your quest for me.

Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly.

And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.

Everyday situations, they start to simplify.

So things will never be the same between you and I.

We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified.

I thought that we would just be friends.

Things will never be the same again.

It's just the beginning it's not the end.

Things will never be the same again.

It's not a secret anymore.

Now we've opened up the door.

Starting tonight and from now on.

We'll never, never be the same again. 

(Come on, come on)

Things will never be the same again.

(You are the one)

Never be the same again.

It's not a secret anymore.

We'll never be the same again.

It's not a secret anymore.

We'll never be the same again.

Never be the same again.

Never be the same again.

Never be the same again.

Never be the same again.

Quand tu.. quand tu me prends dans tes bras, quand je regarde dans tes yeux Je vois qu'un Dieu existe. Ce n'est pas dur d'y croire...

Before I met you I wasn't terribly lucky, every Prince Charming lost charm after twelve.

But then you came and made the past look so funny...put my old sadness to sleep on a shelf.

If this was meant to be, don't condemn me to be free...!

And even if we never marry:

I will always love you, baby

Childishly...

I love the temperature and smell of your body, the shape of your lips and the size of your nose. I love that everything you say is so funny; plus, you're the best kisser that I've ever known.

You've seen the way I am: without make-up, without clothes. 

And you accept me like nobody... 

and I will always love you, baby

With eyes closed...

'Cause something... You've got something I can't resist.

Things are what they will be when I look into your eyes- they say to me that God still exists-

You make me believe...

... Je te desire ...

--- There are so many ways to simply enter a door.

(02-10-2011)  5.58pm

WHAT IF we acknowledge every single bit of our capabilities and try to magnify them into something great? Life is after all, about learning new things and being better at them every time. I don’t even believe that the sky is the limit. We can always go beyond that ‘maximum value’ human themselves had fixed. I strongly think that what actually limits us is our own courage.

Taking creativity as an example;

how far are you able to defy simplicity in a logic with that hidden unscientific, intuitional brainwave of yours?

The question is, are you brave enough to take a step further?

“And before you swim, you gotta be okay to sink.” – Brandon Boyd, Earth to Bella Pt. 1

 p/s: ignore le title :p

These are the few things I love about you, and they aren't just all.
I love the way you stand: looking humble yet so macho and tall.
I love watching you take those quick-paced, steady steps until you're out of my sight.
I love it when you already know something, then we argue, and prove that you're right.
I love the way you're sometimes always late, despite not at all moving slow.
I love the way you'd carry your big black bag wherever you go.
(Sometimes I do wonder what other things you carry besides your books.)
I love the way you flip your hair and care so much about how it looks.
I love playing tennis with you, laughing at your failed service and how you run.
I love that pink tint on your cheeks and the way they'd flush more under the sun.
I love that the fact that you wouldn't mind to accompany and have dinner with me.
I love that you would order "telur bungkus" and generously share it for free!  :p
I love playing CS with you although I'm always getting a headshot.
I love the way you're enthusiastic about something, and you'd laugh a lot.
I love the way you smile cheekily, sometimes naughty, sometimes just sweet.
I love the way you eyes sparkle whenever you start to speak.
I love it when we're discussing things and the topic got astray.
I love your accent, the tone of your voice, and all the things that you say.
I love the way you talk, your words and how they sometimes got transferred.
I love the way you mumble something and refuse to repeat afterwards.
I love it when you can never get serious about anything that is serious.
I love it when you give your opinion- straight honest yet unbiased.
I love the way you'd frown, looking confused whenever you don't get something.
I love the way your vanity shows when you claim (it's true, though) that you're good-looking.
I love the way you dress you hair to class just to obey the ethical needs.
I love the visible creased smiling curves you have on the side of your lips
(and how they're still there though you're wearing a serious expression.)
I love that you're so cool and relaxed in any given "life-threatening" situation.
I love your creativity, products and wonderful skills at multimedia.
I love the fact (it's so cute!) that you would actually trade the world for DotA.
I love to hear you call my full name, pronounced wrongly and tried repeating it.
I love it how you would brighten any conversation with your humour and wit.
I love the way you'd subtly give in whenever I asked of you something.
I love the way you know I'd do my best to help you with anything.
I love the way you look in your photos, whether recent ones or old.
I love it when you'd force me to wear your sweater (although you're the one feeling cold.)
I love the way you'd mock and twist my words that are wrongly said.
I love it when you're always there, in times of good and bad.
I love the way sometimes you're so difficult for me to comprehend.
I love the way you already touched my heart and make it so hard for me to pretend.
I love the way that you're not perfect but the most perfect guy I know.
I love you so much-
it's almost impossible for me to hold back-
although I'm afraid that my feelings might already show.

Yesterday was a super long busy day.

I went for 3 rounds of bowling at Riverside, Kuching. 

Then, go kai kai with my sister at Spring.

We watched Breaking Dawn till 7.30 p.m. The movie was horrible~!

It focused too much on the unnecessary scenes and skipped all the highlight of the movie. Waste of money and time.

I had a slight headache soon after I came out from the movie hall.

Perhaps it was due to all the thinking throughout the day. No, the week. No, the month? Oh, whatever it is.

I was feverish as I got home. So after taking my bath, I headed straight for the bed.

Suddenly something funny came into my mind. 

Amidst those dizziness and confusion, I thought of a person who I have been thinking about lately.

"Lately" here I myself dare not identify specifically when. 

I couldn't recall when exactly I started having these anxious feelings of wanting to hear from him, always.

Sometimes I get upset whenever he's not replying my messages. 

It's kinda weird, because we're only friends! 

I don't know what changed my feelings for him. I used to see him as the unfriendliest person alive in I know (not going to say "in the world" lol) 

But as I know him better, I discovered that he's a truly wonderful person to befriend with.

 I love that he can never get serious about ANYTHING. 

He cheers me up with his jovial, care-free and happy-go-lucky personality. But sometimes, he can be quite cold. It's like he has a split personality. 

I was all along afraid that I might annoy him.

I enjoy every moment spent with him. Deep inside, I hope he enjoys my company too.

I don't need him to like me. I just need him to not mind that I really care about him. 

I wish there's a way I could let him know that I want things to stay the same way.

I want him to feel comfortable around me, because I know sometimes I may act like a weido.I talk weirdly, behave weirdly. I even dress weirdly. 

Perhaps the only way I can express myself is through writing.(This is one of the reasons why I predicted I could never marry in the future! Haha~)

Gosh, I'm now crapping all these mooshy swooshy stuffs here. 

Anyway,

I could never guess what demon or supernatural force had driven me that night into doing something I thought I would never do- even if reincarnated. Almost impulsively, I confessed to that person that I like him. Mind you, I added there "a lot".

Not wanting to know what's the reply, my systems shuts down and there I was, drifting off to Slumberland....

This entry was about my sleep.

It was a nice 20 mins of sleep. Super refreshing. I felt as if those tiredness from insomnia and restless nights since arriving in Kuching...suddenly all gone!

                                     ...and it shook my fever off!     :3

When the heart seems to fail the mind.

Love hurts. Yes, it does. Sometimes it inflicts a pain so hurtful that you feel numb and cold inside. However, the moment your heart is broken, your mind opens to a completely new perspective on life. You learn to appreciate things more... little things in life that you've never realised before. 

Love is not blind. Who says so? I don't know if love is blind or sighted. Sure, it is blinding when it strikes you unexpectedly. 

I don't know how people can actually define love. Love isn't always wonderful. I see love as a challenge: whereby one has to be prepared to battle between rationality and beck-ism. (urban word. lol. ) 

Despite all the labour and sweat you had to put into it to make it work (and knowing that it could eventually come to an end at any moment), in the end it sure feels worth it. Nobody ever knows why. 

Perhaps, there's lies the magic of love. 

I thought I found love the last three years. He was my ex. I loved him for his sensitivity towards a girl's feelings, but that was before he broke my heart. I'm not going to blame him for what happened between us back then. Indeed, I found myself falling in and out of him, with each time, I see more flaws in his character, and I had never thought that I could actually forget my feelings for him now. 

(Mind, I haven't used the phrase "forget him" because I'm not a senile old woman...! How can I FORGET a person...?)

Well, I learnt the hard way that I have to move on, eventually. There's no use putting too high of hope into a relationship that I myself is quite uncertain with. 

A friend long neglected (his name's "rationality") once said, 

"If he honestly cared about you, one bit he wouldn’t have left. Not the first time, not the second time, not ever."

It struck me then. Suddenly, I felt those invisible ropes that once tied me to my feelings had broken. I knew then that I have to open my heart and mind if I want to be loved again.

This is quite true. I find myself in love again. 

And I learnt to not expect too much from what I dream for. 

I'm not sure if this is love, but I'm in love with this feeling;

feeling like a child again; jovial and carefree. 

Something I learnt as I know this guy. 

It's a weird kind of feeling. 

I'm not expecting to have any relationship with this person although my feelings for him has been growing until today. I find him so endearing and charming now. 

I used think that he's cold and unfriendly. I was wrong. He's all warm and kind.
I enjoy his company. :)

He gives me this warm and fuzzy feeling inside me... butterflies rocking out in my stomach...! :p

I want to stay like this forever. (seeing me crapping like this, wow. epic!)

Perhaps I made it too obvious that I adore him. Perhaps he knows it already.

Even if the feeling's not mutual. But who cares? 
Nevertheless, I hope that he won't try to distant himself from me after knowing how I really felt for him. It would really break my heart.
I'm really content at our friendship now. :))

He told me this, 

"We learn the mistake today, 

that's what we gain."

(Gosh, he sounds so handsome when he speaks this. lol xD)

Yes, I'm not afraid to fail now; I'm not afraid to take that fall for him.

Even if there's no future for us, (there's a big 'gate' between us! :p )

I'm glad I knew him! He changed my opinion about how love should be.

To love does not mean to have. 


For me, I still can't define love, but all I know is that

 it sure does exist in you...

when there's a desire to be close to the person you care 
about.
(Despite not knowing what the future may hold for the both of 
you- 
and even if you're unsure whether there is one.)


I know it exists when...


You'd do your very best to keep that person safe and happy 
even if they're not in your company, not within your reach.


You still don't know why those feelings exist at the first place.
In your heart, you're secretly wishing that they'd feel the 
same way for you,


yet foolishly forgiving if they fail to feel the same way.


That is LOVE for me...


How would YOU define love...? ;)

Dittos in expressions... and feelings.

Ever had that gauche moment when you feel like someone is being rather emotional for a particular reason– which you don’t know? And you somehow feel that you are to be blamed for that bad feeling he/she feels.(?) 

Such an emotional torture and perhaps, is what I'm already destined to go through forever.

This is not the first time I am diagnosed with a common disease familiar by the name PARANOIA: 

the feelings you have when you think others are always trying to pick on you. 

The quirk matter of my case is how I am always gutsy feisty about whether is it really JUST ME? 

Could it possibly be something concealed from your knowledge and sixth’s sense? What if he/she really IS pissed at you? I wouldn’t know.

What I’d often do is ask the same weary question of “Are you okay?” 

and get that same sick answer: “Yeah, I’m cool.” 

Yet I'll still be stuck with that same frustrating frown on his/her face! 

Then again, I can’t always place myself in such agony of having to butter that person up to make up for something I didn’t do- well, at least something I NEVER KNOW what I did). 

Nor can I ever ignore and just walk away. 

Sometimes after long useless effort of trying, I would chose to keep quiet instead and give the same cold treatment because I know for sure, that’ll help to reverse the situation. He/she will instead start asking if I'm okay. If I'm lucky enough, I might even manage to dig the truth out  from that person too.

What would you do if you’re being forced into such intricate position?

Inevitable it is, and very natural for people to show what they feel inside on their facial expressions. People frown when they’re stressed. OR angry. 

That’s the problem! I never understood such complexity of human facial structures and how it can affect people so greatly (people like me, specifically, if I’m not one of the population).

 That’s the science we should all start wondering about.

Think of it like a mapping process: You frown, I frown.